I want to share something personal with you today. Is that alright?
As I patiently await the arrival of my daughter, I found it relevant to share my first love letter to her along with some pictures from my maternity shoot under the creative direction of Photographer Ayanna Fairbanks (who I will be interviewing soon!). Every time I see these pictures; every time I read this letter… I cry. I have never felt so fulfilled in my entire life. I hope that you can share those same sentiments with me as I welcome you into this very personal, life-altering chapter of my life. Enjoy.
To My Darling Daughter:
My little seedling. My beautiful Flower. I will do my best to write my love for you in words, but in all actuality I know that there are no words to describe how much my soul adores you. There isn’t a minute of my day that goes by when I am not thinking of you. I have yet to see your face or hold you in my arms and already I am consumed with endearment. When I think of you, I wonder what you will look like while you dream or what song you will always want me to sing to you when you need comfort. I wonder how often you will do or say something that reminds me of myself. I often wonder if you will be anything like me at all. I know that no matter the outcome of any of those things, I am most excited about loving you unconditionally with everything that I am, until my very last breath on Earth.
I have so much to thank you for, Flower, and you’re not even physically here yet. You’ve brought about such a strength and happiness in your mother and now that I have you, there is absolutely nothing that can take that away. You are my strength; you are my happiness; and that will never be untrue. You have provided me with an indefinite desire to be better than the person I was yesterday. You have given me all the reason in the world to set a great example for the supreme woman you are sure to be. You have given me purpose in making the world a better, safer place for you to grow up in. Your presence opened my eyes to the people and things that were truly important in my life and more importantly, your presence eliminated the people and things that weren’t. You have given me an incredible hunger for a bolder relationship with Christ so that I may raise you up in Him. You changed my life from the minute I found out you were blossoming in my womb and for that I will be forever grateful.
I promise to be honest with you and to love you through your heartaches and pains. I promise to love you when you’re weak and I promise to praise you when you’re strong. I apologize in advance for the times that I will misunderstand your decisions or pass judgment against them. I promise to acknowledge when I’m wrong and to always explain these things to you when you don’t seem to understand. I will always do my best to help you understand that when you came into my life, I never saw you as anything but a blessing, despite the circumstances. You were not a mistake and loving you was never a difficult decision for Mommy to make.
The times won’t always be easy and the memories may not always be blissful, but they will forever be ours because I will never leave your side as long as I live. I love you with every inch of my being. I love you with every ounce of my soul. No matter how old you get, you will always be my baby girl. You are the rhythm of my heart and soul and I will never stop loving you, my Flower.
All my love until the end of time,
See the entire shoot below: